I don't know what to do

“The Khalil I know would’ve jumped on tv in a hot second and told everybody what happened that night if it meant defending you. And you can’t do the same for him.” That’s what Kenya said when I confirmed I was the one with him that night. She also said that if it was one of my Williamson friends, I would be on tv defending them. It hurts because I know it's true. Khalil was the bravest person I know. I’m a coward. I saw what the cops did to my dad when they realized I was the witness. I can’t let that happen to anyone else. Seven, Sekani, I’m protecting them. Besides, I already talked to the police and they did nothing. I want justice for Khalil more than I've ever wanted anything in my life but I don't know what else I can do.  I couldn't get justice for Natasha, even after I found out how it was. But I can for Khalil. I just don't know how. I’m scared. 

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