Chris

 This seems so trivial compared to most of my life's problems right now but it hurts that my dad doesn't approve of Chris. Just because he's white. I understand where he's coming from of course. But still. He's acting as if Chris is the devil. For something he can't change. Yes, there are things Chris will never understand, but I don't understand why he can't just accept that I really like Chris and be happy for me. When we were talking afterwards Chris said that "he doesn't see colour". I think that's the stupidest thing ever because if he "doesn't see colour" then he doesn't see me. I just don't think he understands. He also said that he told his parents about me being black. It kind of rubbed me the wrong way. It seemed like he felt he had to explain me being black because it's a deviation from "normality". Yet my daddy making a big deal about him being white is "weird". It makes me think that he thinks being white is the default. Maybe I'm just overthinking things because I want my dad's approval so bad. 

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